You’re my first romance
my first kiss and dance
You’re my first love
my first true I love you
You are my first heartbreak
my first moving on
my first the one that got away
You’re my first happy story
and sad story.
You’re my first history.
I look around
Looking at people
and how I see their lives
How I wish I was them
The girl with the beautiful hair
With slim arms and long neck
That girl wearing laces
and she still looked nice
The other girl with glowing skin
and holding a nice book
I look at these girls
I badly wanted to be them
To be everyone but myself
I look at people
and ask myself
why cant I be them
That girl with her boyfriend
wrapped around his arms
Or that girl sitting next to her guy
Look at each other, knowing
Even that girl waiting in line
suprised by a boy with flowers
Im so aware of them
of the existence of love
of self worth
So keen in observing
the world im in
yet so afraid
i dont belong in it
Sana’y muli kong marinig
Awit mong kay tamis at kay lamig,
TinIg mong sumasabay sa hangin,
Pag-ibig ang sigaw ng damdamin.
Pag-ibig mong alay sa akin,
Panagko mong ‘di ako sasaktan,
Sana’y hindi ito malimutan.
Ngutnit ikaw ay biglang nagbago,
Pinaluha’t sinaktan ako.
Pag-ibig sa puso’y tutluyang naglaho,
Lubusang naparam pati ang pangako.
Sabi mo noo’y ako lang ang mamalin,
At tanging aawitan ng tinig mong kay lambing.
Bakit ngayo’y tila di ako nakikilala?
Pag-ibig bas a aki’y sadya ngang nawala?
Masdan mo ako, aking sinta,
Lumuluha sa hirap at tigib na dusa.
Binulag mo yaring mga mata,
Ako ba talga’y wala ng halaga?
Nasan ang pangakong ako’y aalagaan?
Wika mo sa aki’y isa kong kayamanan.
Ang pag-ibig mong aking pinaniwalaan,
Ngayo’y hinuhukay ang aking libingan.
Akala mo yata’y di ako mag tatampo,
Ngunit mali ka, ako’y marunong mahapo.
Ibinigay ko ang lahat ng ibig mo,
Wala ngang naiwan kundi pawing bakas ko.
Talino mo’y tila may hated na lason,
Inilulugmok ako’t hindi binabangon.
Inaakay sa aking kamatayan,
Kalian matatapos ang iyong kalupitan?
Sa pagsikat muli ng araw,
Sana’y muli mo akong matanaw.
Sa pag-ihip muli ng hangin,
Ibulong ang sigaw ng damdamin.
Sana’y muli mo kong marinig,
Awit ng iyong tunay na pag ibig.
Sana’y muli mo akong mahalin,
Pangako mo sana ay tuparin.
Nobody takes me seriously! Literally.
They told me it was because of my perkiness
(which is so hard to resist)!!
Then let me say my 'thank you's.
Thanks to my new found friends
of kiddos, ates and kuyas at work,
To my best friends that i could easily chat with
anytime-anywhere-ANYHOW of any randomness
And to the wonderful relatives and family I luckily have.
Thanks to all these great people around me
for making my smiles beam the brightest,
my laughter the most honest,
my patience the most understanding
and all my giggles the sweetest.
So I don't really mind,
If some don't take me as serious as i try to be.
I take it as a compliment.
It is to remind me how fortunate i am.
It is a reflection of how I try and strive to live.
It is the universe telling me 'keep smiling'.
and thanks to these people in my life,
i am peachy! :)
Those two words, ‘Dear Emma’ take me away to way another time when we use to write to each other after mom and dad died. I used to tell you about my new friends and my new life. And you used to tell me about the grand time my mom and dad were having in heaven. Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything. And the main thing that I used to believe was that I would be with you forever. Forever. The reason it is taking me so long to write you is that I have seen that I have been a fool. I have spent my life fooling myself. Every letter I’ve ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else? I can see now that all of them, except this one, were bad love letters. Bad love letters beg for love back. Good love letters ask for nothing. This, I’m pleased to announce, is my first good love letter to you. Because there is nothing more for you to do. You already done everything. I have enough of you in my head to last forever. So please don’t ever worry about me. I’m peachy! I really am. I have everything. If i had one wish, it would be that your life brings you a taste of happiness that you have brought to me. That you could feel what it’s like to love.
Your friend forever,