Opportunity to be Inspired.

Lahat tayo kailangan ng inspiration sa bawat gagawin natin.

Narinig ko sa isang TV show na "we can take inspiration out of anywhere." baka pati rin mula sa anything at anyone. or kahit anong gusto nating paghugutan ng inspirasyon. at sa palagay ko, super totoo un.

Minsan pag lumalabas ako, nakikita ko un langit dito samin pag hapon. ang ganda pero ang lungkot ng kulay. tapos naisip ko, ganun ang buhay eh, ang ganda ganda, ang sarap sarap mabuhay. pero minsan pag mag isa tayo, malungkot din pala mabuhay.

Kadalasan kapag nasa bus ako pauwi, nako super haba ng biyahe, nag iisip ako ng inspirasyon. para habang nasa biyahe ako, makapag buo ako ng concept ng isusulat ko pag uwi ko sa bahay. ayun, so far so good naman.

Siguro, ung mga taong nakakakilala sakin noon, ung alam ung mga bagay bagay tungkol sa totoong ako. ito siguro ung hindi nila ganung alam. ung ganitong side ko. na minsan kahit super expired na nung moment, ginagawa ko paring inspirasyon. sayang eh. kung un ba mag papasipag sakin magsulat, edi, go di ba. Minsan akala natin maliit na bagay lang un. pero from those small yet meaningful moments nakakahugot ng lakas ng loob, ng mga salitang sasakto sa gusto mong ipaliwanag at ng kwento. kwentong minsan pwedeng dagdagan, o bawasan, palitan o kung ano pa man. kasi nangyare na un. kung may iibahin ka, ok lang. hindi naman biography ung ginagawa mo eh. hindi naman straight news. kaya ok lang. hindi porket may ganung linya, ganun na talaga di ba?

Pag binasa niyo ung mga nalagay ko na ditong mga nabuo ko, mapapansin niyo puro love okaya puro moving on or basta parang personal. Oo, aaminin ko, may mga taong hindi maiintindihan tong sasabihin ko, pero might as well, sabihin ko na din. Sinulat ko un base sa nararamdaman ko, pag nanunuod ng movie, nagbabasa ng novel at pag may naaalala ako from the past. pero hindi ibig sabihin nun un ung state ng feelings ko. nagkakataon lang na un ung nabubuo. Hindi naman lahat ng gagawin natin kailangan pang kasalukuyan eh. minsan may mga kwento sa nakaraan na gusto mong ibahagi kasi alam mong somewhere out there ung naramdaman ko noon, baka nararamdaman din nila.

Pag gusto kong sumulat ng masaya, edi iniisip ko ung sa mga movies at mga friends ko na nag eenjoy sa love mga moment na naramdaman ko din un. ung mga sweet na eksena ng mga couple. Pag tungkol sa nakaraan o malungkot na love story, ganun din. movies, libro at personal na experience.

Masarap mainspire sa mga tamang bagay bagay. Kaya everyday, i look at it as an opportunity to be inspired again. and again. :)

Film: Becoming Jane 2007

"Becoming Jane" is a love story which setting is in 1975. It was inspired by Jane Austen, a well-known writer, and her relationship with a young Irishman named Tom Lefroy.
This film is about one of my favorite writers and i love that her masterpieces were also inspired with such a wonderful romance she had. Its not just romance but also a bit of history. watching the film felt like i was a very close friend of Jane and Tom. i've witnessed their love and also their hardship. and yes, i am an extreme fan of Anne Hathaway and James McAvoy. they were very great in this film. ^^

i love how their different paths crossed and progressed. Jane was just from a poor family who dreams too big for a women like her. She was supposed to be married to a wealthy man to help her and her family as well. but she was firm on what she believes and that's to marry a person she truly love. She hoped that through her passion in writing she could still help her family.
Then from a very different place, Tom Lefroy who was a non-aristocratic lawyer with bad reputation, came to Jane Austen's life with a very bad first impression. they believe that Tom Lefroy was Mr. Darcy of Jane's Pride and Prejudice. so as their mind clashes and cat-and-dog fights, they eventually fell in love with each other. which was a dismay of both of Jane's family and Tom's Uncle which was also his provider at that time.
So they run away with their love as their strength. but behind Jane's witty mind, she started to doubt if love was enough for them to live life together forever. that was the moment i really cried. i believe that love was really enough for the both of them but Jane doesn't want to be selfish. So they retreated their plan and grew apart from each other.
at the end, Jane never got married and obviously become a successful writer. Tom Lefroy got married and named his eldest daughter Jane. after few years they met again and it was visible in their eyes that true love was once shared by them and still does exist.
another thing i love about this film was how the story evolve during the time she started writing Pride and Prejudice. it made me understand more the inspiration of that book she wrote. and also, i dream of becoming a writer. So Jane in the story inspired me more to write and make people feel what to feel in a literature.
this film really made me cry not just because they didn't end up together but it was because of how love was so complicated. i've always thought that once you found that someone, love would be enough. but that doesn't mean Jane and Tom wasn't meant to be. they were. its just that they lived with reality and not ideally.
here are some quotes i've remember:
  • Tom LefroyI am yours. Heart and soul, I’m yours. Much good that is. 
  • Jane Austen: I will decide that.
  • Mr. WisleySometimes affection is a shy flower that takes time to blossom.
  • Jane AustenA woman especially if she has the misfortune of knowing anything, should conceal it as well as she can.
  • Jane Austen: His heart will stop at the very sight of you or he doesn't deserve to live. and yes, i am aware of the contradiction embodied to that sentence. 

Perks of Riding a Bus (a letter)

To that tall guy wearing a vintage looking ray bans sun glass,
yes to you good looking guy dressed to impressed
with a neat light blue long sleeves and denim jeans
paired with chuck taylor's to complete the look:


It was very gentleman of you
to offer a seat, your seat to an old lady.

uhm. eh. sorry...

Have you notice my gaze?
Sorry, i didn't mean to stare.

I tried figuring you out
but i wasn't judging you.

Your watch made you look more classy.
Your sun glasses cover those sleepy eyes.
just saying though

Your impressively neat long sleeves
made you such a professional
though your husky denim jeans 
made you cool and sexy

and what made it completely perfect

for me


was your nicely stained pair of chucks.

no. i didn't want your attention.
didn't want you to even notice me.

i was actually hiding.

wanted you not to find me,
yet on the other hand,
i hoped you'd find me.

i'm not a weird creepy gal.
sorry if i made that impression.

i'm just a dreamer.

and you happened to be that dreamy guy
i'd hoped to meet in a random circumstance.

with sincere admiration,
that girl next to you in a random bus. ♥

Film: Tangled 2010

"Tangled" is inspired by the fairy tale "Rapunzel". it was said that "Tangled" is the most expensive animated featured film and was also the 2nd most expensive film ever made. no wonder why it is such an amazing film! i love how this film was created. i even watched interviews of the director and cast because of my fondness to this film. The screenplay of this film was excellent. they created a new dimension of the fairy tale. It made the film so much interesting. :)

of course, Flynn Rider is my favorite character. i think he is the most charming prince out of all the disney princess films ever made. this film isn't just for kids. and i love that. the two main leading characters are not perfect and they have flaws. which make it more realistic and fun.
and the soundtrack of this film was amazing. i love every song. i even downloaded it and place in my phone. :)) it was a great news when i figured out that Mandy Moore was the voice of Rapunzel. i fancy her. and i think she did great in this film. its harder than acting. i think. :))
there are so many things to love in this film. the character, the animation, the music, the innocence and humour. and i wonder why do people say that this film was no good. it was worth seeing!!
and honestly, Rapunzel and Flynn made me blush and made my heart melt. :) i love how it had to end through cutting Rapunzel's hair. and they lived happily ever after. ♥

quotes i loved from the film:

  • Rapunzel: Something brought you here, Flynn Rider. Call it what you will... fate... destiny... Flynn: A horse
  • Flynn: You were my new dream. Rapunzel: and you were mine.


by Janina Marean

When They broke up, Everything was well.
They were back to being friends again. 

It's fine. If that's what he wants. 
was all she says. 
That's life. I hope she's happy now. 
was all he said. 

They stayed as friends. 
Shared triumph of every success. 
Asked favors like nothing happened. 
Tried not to argue once in a while. 
And refused to do the talk 

Of unresolved feelings. Of uncertain emotions. 
Talk of the real closure they never really had. 
The ending that they both deserve. 

When he started to move on. 
She was left alone. 
It seems like he got over the separation 
easier than she imagined. 

She thought she knew him well. 
He thought she clearly wouldn't care. 
They were ex-es that became friends again. 
It was a difficult label to handle. 

She didn't want anymore assumptions to grow. 
He didn't want to make a big deal out of it. 
So they started not to talk to each other. 

In her mind, she's trying to figure things out. 
Waiting for something to happen 
that she misunderstood as chances. 
Seeking for another reason to make her hold on. 
To make her want to stay. to not give up. 

In his mind, It was simple and clear. 
All was said and done. It didn't worked out. 
They were very much through. so long ago. 
He didn't mean to hurt her. He couldn't lie to her. 
He knew they had given up the day they broke up. 

When will she figure out that she was all wrong? 
When would she believe that it is the end? 

When will he understand that fake smile was for him? 
When would he realize that it was never easy? 

When do we stop finding excuses?
When is enough and too much? 
When to expect and not to expect? 
When to give up?


Pagbasa at Pagsulat

March 10 2012

Ngayong gabi, binasa ko ang mga sulat niya para sakin noon. Tapos ito uli ako. ung Janinang iyakin, Janinang kinikilig na sa “LUV U”, Janinang gusto uli maramdaman ung magmahal ng sobra at hindi takot masaktan.

Pakiramdam ko bata uli ung puso ko. Parang ayoko ding maubos ‘tong tinta ng ball pen kong maganda, natatakot akong mapagod ‘tong kamay ko sa pag sulat, na baka mangalay ako sa pwesto ko, na baka antukin ako habang sinusulat ko to.

Naisip kong basahin ang so-called “memories” namin hinde dahil gusto kong bumalik sya, hindi din dahil na mimiss ko sya, hindi ito dahil sa kung anu mang unresolve feelings na meron ako. gusto ko lang balikan, malaman kung bakit mahalaga tong mga to sakin ng sobra.

Mag isa ako ngayong gabi, dito sa dorm, sa double deck. at mahaba ang listahan ko ng mga dapat gawin. Bukas pag gising ko babalik na uli ako sa reyalidad. haharap sa mga tao, mabubuhay para sa kung ano ang meron ngayon at hindi ano ang nakaraan o hinaharap. Living the present, living now.

Pero ngayong gabi, magmumuni muni muna uli ako. Screw my to-do list. i’m doing myself a favor by letting my mind rest and my heart float. kaya habang naka play ang Theraphy, Remembering Sunday, Day dream away at iba pang slow song ng pinaka mamahal kong All Time Low. ung When we were young, Back to the start at kung ano pang mala-heart broken na kanta ng The Summer Set. Sama mo pa ung Baby Blue Eyes, Mr. Right, Like we used at mga heart felt na kanta ng A Rocket to the Moon. habang na ka on ang playlist kong yan, susulat ako. magrereminisce ako. makikipag reconcile sa first inspiration ko. reunite with my first romance. sa lahat ng first ko nung una akong kinilig. nung unang beses ako naging emo. nung kagaya dati na super madrama pa ko dahil sa LOVE. Alam mo kung anong pinaka magandang part nung mga un? ung part na natutong magsalita ung puso ko. kasi nung nainlove ako. naka buo ako ng tula, ng kanta at kung ano ano. dahil nung na in love ako, natuto akong sumulat, makipag usap gamit ang magandang tinta ng ballpen ko.

Dahil sa pag basa ko ng sulat niya, naka alala ako. naalala ko ‘to. :)

Poetry: During Tough Times

I remember writing this for some of my friends. that time, they were really lonely because of their recent break ups. Then our gang tries to comfort them by having a get together once in a while. We get drunk and be silly. i love my friends. i label them as may BFs for life. :) This was originally called "Authentic"


During Tough Times
by Janina

They have said goodbyes
In several and sudden times
Uttered the most aching words
Left you miserable and lifeless
Broken, you call ourselves

All the gloomy things yo do
I'm willing to uphold too
I also bear the burden in you
You can cry if ou want to
And i'll shed tear with you

Each misery you do have
You know i'd like to listen
Every time you're troubled
I'd care for to witness
That's what real friends are for

Once your so called Love
Had bid their farewells
You'll find the gist of friendship
The essence of a hand to hold
A shoulder to cry on

It is hard to be found
But worth searching for
Imperceptible yet unconditional
Unreadable but heartfelt

Unspoken yet authentic

Definitely, i want to see you again

Laughing and loving again
But you don't need to pretend
I really know how it feels
Even if you're bleeding, i know
You still want to be happy, somehow.

After the heartwarming mourn
I'm not giving up on you now
Just close your teary eyes
I'm about to hit you now,
Chuckle and mutter to your ears
"Hang on! I'll always be here."


Nicholas Sparks Fandom

This is an note entry from my old facebook account dated March 26 2010
i don't care if some people think it's corny.
it's what i like. ♥
First, i was so dazzled by "a walk to remember". yeah, i know its so old,
but i just can't get over it. haha!! i love to watch it over and over again.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It dose not take offense and is not resentful. Love take no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes." 

"Dean: If there is a greater power, why is it he can't get you a new sweater?
Jamie: Because he's too busy looking for your brain." 

"Landon: I might kiss you
Jamie: I might be bad at it
Landon: That's not possible" 

Now i'm taken by his book: The Last Song. (thanks to pawla.)
few chapters to come to finish it. ♥ (last 4 chapters i guess.)

"I mean, if the relationship can't survive the long term, why on earth would it be worth my time and energy for the short term?" 

"He stared at her, knowing with certainty that he was falling in love. He pulled her close and kissed her beneath a blanket of stars, wondering how on earth he'd been lucky enough to find her." 

“I’m not being funny. I’m being serious.” 

“Oh, because we’re so good-looking" 

May be after the last song, i'd be reading "The Notebook"
i haven't seen the movie, but i know how great it is.
so i got curious. =)

"You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together."

"We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has only happened once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it." 

and now, i wonder...
what's next.. ♥

to update this blog: 
now, I've actually read all 3 of them and also watched their movie versions and to add to my Nicholas-Sparks-fangirling I've also watched "Nights in Rodante" and "Dear John". and soon i'll love to watch his "Lucky One"