Books and Reading

Greetings! Lol.
Ever since i started working, i feel like i’m so exhausted with work, chores at home and catching up with friends and family. But don’t get me wrong, i’m loving it. Though because of this, reading has been my sleeping companion. Since i’m tired when i get home, i read so that i can get to dreamland easier. Lol. So i haven’t done any good reading lately. And i miss it. Now that i kinda have the luxury of time, i just couldn’t get into the mood. Argh. What happened. Lol.

Another point this post intend to state is my odd addiction to purchasing books. I’m guilty of buying books even i haven’t finish any of the ones i bought a week earlier. I’m guilty that even though i don’t have time to read them, i still want to have them. I’m guilty of going to book sales, fairs, or bazaars and purchase books, i “think”, i would love to read. I’m used to being impulsive and fickle-minded at the same time. That’s me, i guess.

Say hello to my babies! 

My Twilight Saga set with the Paulo Coelho's and Nicholas Sparks'

Here are the Pinoy Lits. I'm missing Para Kay B by Ricky Lee

The ones from Sales/Bazaars/Fairs

Good finds and good reads! *othersLOL

Borrowed books! *to the owners, i promise to return them! forgive me.

Some of my favsss!

and here are the new ones, bought them awhile ago at Bookay Ukay! :)

Obviously...

Hopefully, i'll be able to get into the vibe of reading again. ♥

Book Inventory. :)

At last! I've finally managed to write something. Even it's nothing cool or significant. LOL.

Last Sunday, I spent my rest day cleaning up my room (or almost cleaning it up.) While sorting some stuff I've finally gathered the books I bought for myself. Then and then, I realized that I've got so many books that i haven't read yet. :'( I promise myself to put effort and time into reading for it is not only my stress reliever but also a companion when i'm alone, a friend when i'm lonely and a mentor when i'm in need of wisdom.

So here's my awesome mini library. LOL.

To Kill a Mocking Bird
Persuasion
Perks of being a Wallflower
One Day
By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
The Devil and Miss Prym
Eleven Minutes
The Notebook
The World's Most Evil Man
Chicken Soup for the Soul (Love Stories)
The Last Lecture
Gossip Girl
Twilight Saga Books

From Book Sales:
Charlie Wilson's War
Altered Carbon
Separation Anxiety

By our Manunulats:
Para Kay B
Trip to Quiapo
It's Not that Complicated
Fangirl

Here's few of the those I haven't read. I'm done with "The Perks of being a Wallflower" and now reading "To Kill a Mocking Bird". Soon, I hope I could share how amazing "The Perks of being a Wallflower" is. I'm about to watch the movie adaptation and I hope that would inspire me to write too. Ü

To be honest, I buy books even though I don't really have the luxury of time to read them all. Now, I'm planning to collect all Jane Austen's and the books stated from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", though I'd accept books as gifts! haha.
So there. Here's my attempt to write something new. LOL. Good day! and keep reading.

Nicholas Sparks Fandom

This is an note entry from my old facebook account dated March 26 2010

i don't care if some people think it's corny.

it's what i like. ♥

First, i was so dazzled by "a walk to remember". yeah, i know its so old,
but i just can't get over it. haha!! i love to watch it over and over again.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It dose not take offense and is not resentful. Love take no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes." 

"Dean: If there is a greater power, why is it he can't get you a new sweater?
Jamie: Because he's too busy looking for your brain." 

"Landon: I might kiss you
Jamie: I might be bad at it
Landon: That's not possible" 

Now i'm taken by his book: The Last Song. (thanks to pawla.)
few chapters to come to finish it. ♥ (last 4 chapters i guess.)

"I mean, if the relationship can't survive the long term, why on earth would it be worth my time and energy for the short term?" 

"He stared at her, knowing with certainty that he was falling in love. He pulled her close and kissed her beneath a blanket of stars, wondering how on earth he'd been lucky enough to find her." 

“I’m not being funny. I’m being serious.” 

“Oh, because we’re so good-looking" 

May be after the last song, i'd be reading "The Notebook"
i haven't seen the movie, but i know how great it is.
so i got curious. =)

"You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together."

"We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has only happened once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it." 

and now, i wonder...
what's next.. ♥

to update this blog: 

now, I've actually read all 3 of them and also watched their movie versions and to add to my Nicholas-Sparks-fangirling I've also watched "Nights in Rodante" and "Dear John". and soon i'll love to watch his "Lucky One"

  

One Gloomy Night

April 03, 2012

i really don't feel great tonight.

My mind and heart is so full. full of crap, worries, paranoia and anxiety. what makes it worse is that i really don't get it. Why do i feel this way? what makes me worry this much. what makes me feel this way? i don’t know if i am sad, or am i anxious or may be overwhelmed. or might as well, scared. but what i really hope is that whatever this feeling is, hoped it was something specific, definite. but no, it has to be this difficult to understand. it would be easier to think that I’m just sad because of graduation and stuff. but it's more than that. i just know.

really, i don't know if it's just me, or the fact that i've not taken bath for days. or because i miss my friends, or is it because i was afraid of the future. of career and responsibility. or is it because even i have this awesome friends it doesn't actually wave away the solitude i fear to feel. that even though i have this lovely friends, i still feel unwanted. still feel insecure. still feel alone. or maybe because of too much suicidal movies, or this Japanese goth movie titled "confessions" that made me realize how easy to lose life. how easy for others to kill, even kill themselves. all we need is drama. or maybe these books of Paulo Coelho. in his "Veronika Decides to die", he made me realize that life's been a routine. and we must hate it. that life is more or less about living it in a crazier and not safe way. that really, life always has its flaw. also in his book "Devil and Miss Prym" , which made me realize that being good is always mistaken as pretentious and trying to live life in a safe path. that even in this book, they see that sticking to what is familiar is being coward. which i guess, makes me coward too. to think of it, there's so many things to be frustrated about. to be lonely of.

but tonight, i feel this clog in my chest again. i feel nauseous and tears starts to fall. i'm scared to go to dreamland.. i fear that when i go to sleep, there's a chance that all this uneasy feelings will reflect to my dreams. thinking that i have to bear with all this anxiety that makes me nauseous during my sleep makes me scared even more.

Lately, i've been feeling all this. i don't know why. and now, i'm afraid.