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THE STORY OF WHEN TO GIVE UP

by Janina Marean

When They broke up, Everything was well.
They were back to being friends again. 

It's fine. If that's what he wants. 
was all she says. 
That's life. I hope she's happy now. 
was all he said. 

They stayed as friends. 
Shared triumph of every success. 
Asked favors like nothing happened. 
Tried not to argue once in a while. 
And refused to do the talk 

Of unresolved feelings. Of uncertain emotions. 
Talk of the real closure they never really had. 
The ending that they both deserve. 

When he started to move on. 
She was left alone. 
It seems like he got over the separation 
easier than she imagined. 

She thought she knew him well. 
He thought she clearly wouldn't care. 
They were ex-es that became friends again. 
It was a difficult label to handle. 

She didn't want anymore assumptions to grow. 
He didn't want to make a big deal out of it. 
So they started not to talk to each other. 

In her mind, she's trying to figure things out. 
Waiting for something to happen 
that she misunderstood as chances. 
Seeking for another reason to make her hold on. 
To make her want to stay. to not give up. 

In his mind, It was simple and clear. 
All was said and done. It didn't worked out. 
They were very much through. so long ago. 
He didn't mean to hurt her. He couldn't lie to her. 
He knew they had given up the day they broke up. 

When will she figure out that she was all wrong? 
When would she believe that it is the end? 

When will he understand that fake smile was for him? 
When would he realize that it was never easy? 

When do we stop finding excuses?
When is enough and too much? 
When to expect and not to expect? 
When to give up?

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Poetry: During Tough Times


I remember writing this for some of my friends. that time, they were really lonely because of their recent break ups. Then our gang tries to comfort them by having a get together once in a while. We get drunk and be silly. i love my friends. i label them as may BFs for life. :) This was originally called "Authentic"


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During Tough Times
by Janina

They have said goodbyes
In several and sudden times
Uttered the most aching words
Left you miserable and lifeless
Broken, you call ourselves

All the gloomy things yo do
I'm willing to uphold too
I also bear the burden in you
You can cry if ou want to
And i'll shed tear with you

Each misery you do have
You know i'd like to listen
Every time you're troubled
I'd care for to witness
That's what real friends are for

Once your so called Love
Had bid their farewells
You'll find the gist of friendship
The essence of a hand to hold
A shoulder to cry on

It is hard to be found
But worth searching for
Imperceptible yet unconditional
Unreadable but heartfelt

Unspoken yet authentic

Definitely, i want to see you again

Laughing and loving again
But you don't need to pretend
I really know how it feels
Even if you're bleeding, i know
You still want to be happy, somehow.

After the heartwarming mourn
I'm not giving up on you now
Just close your teary eyes
I'm about to hit you now,
Chuckle and mutter to your ears
"Hang on! I'll always be here."


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Poetry: Seventeen

I wrote this way way back when i was still in first year highschool. What? being heartbroken is totally underrated. haha. I consider this as one of the first few poem i wrote back then.

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SEVENTEEN
by Janina Marean

It was my lucky day
but the days passed with nothing
that made my lucky day, worst.

It actually gave glow in my heart
but it slowly fade away
that eventually gave me pain

It was the reason of my smiles
but it was given to her
that became the reason behind my tears

It serves as our loving memory
but it was taken from me
that made it our hateful past

It once made me thankful
but what is done is done
that often made me regretful

that thankful - grateful yesterday
became a remorseful tomorrow
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Poetry: Again

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Again
by Janina

I did it again, run after you again.
hoping you'll look back, but you never did.
It does hurt, with the same intense as before

with the glimpse of you and her
walking away, leaving, together.
is this forever?

I just want to break free
from your strong hold over my heart.
from our memories that faded long ago.

I don't know what makes me hold on
knowing that our promise of forever
wasn't meant to last

what makes me fall all over again,
what brings me back to
that first skip of heartbeat.
each and every time you're here

what makes me stay
even you're nowhere to be found
what makes me say, "again"


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