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THE STORY OF WHEN TO GIVE UP

by Janina Marean

When They broke up, Everything was well.
They were back to being friends again. 

It's fine. If that's what he wants. 
was all she says. 
That's life. I hope she's happy now. 
was all he said. 

They stayed as friends. 
Shared triumph of every success. 
Asked favors like nothing happened. 
Tried not to argue once in a while. 
And refused to do the talk 

Of unresolved feelings. Of uncertain emotions. 
Talk of the real closure they never really had. 
The ending that they both deserve. 

When he started to move on. 
She was left alone. 
It seems like he got over the separation 
easier than she imagined. 

She thought she knew him well. 
He thought she clearly wouldn't care. 
They were ex-es that became friends again. 
It was a difficult label to handle. 

She didn't want anymore assumptions to grow. 
He didn't want to make a big deal out of it. 
So they started not to talk to each other. 

In her mind, she's trying to figure things out. 
Waiting for something to happen 
that she misunderstood as chances. 
Seeking for another reason to make her hold on. 
To make her want to stay. to not give up. 

In his mind, It was simple and clear. 
All was said and done. It didn't worked out. 
They were very much through. so long ago. 
He didn't mean to hurt her. He couldn't lie to her. 
He knew they had given up the day they broke up. 

When will she figure out that she was all wrong? 
When would she believe that it is the end? 

When will he understand that fake smile was for him? 
When would he realize that it was never easy? 

When do we stop finding excuses?
When is enough and too much? 
When to expect and not to expect? 
When to give up?

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Poetry: What Matters

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What Matters
by Janina

when it comes to this guy
i don't really know if it's real or not
what matters, i guess.
is how he made me feel.

Regardless of the reason.
Whether it's a lie or it is true
What matters for me
is how he took effort
took chances
to make me feel loved.

Inside, i don't really know why
but it seems that
he's my devil in disguise

he makes me smile
yet he still made me cry
he taps my head when i'm sad
yet he still needs my help

but i wonder if it's real or not
did he pretended to love me?
what would he gain from it?
was that a fake confession?
again, what would he gain from it?
had he been bluffing when he said "mahal kita"

Beyond that.
Whether it is real or not.
At the end of the day.
even though love had ended for us.
years ago.
I wouldn't deny.

He made me feel loved.

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The Introduce-Yourself Part


Hi there. i really don't know why i made a new blog. >.<
so let's start by introducing the "writer". lol.

I'm Janina Marean and sadly i'm 21 but i feel like my soul stop aging when i reached 16. I'm very young at heart. haha! I talk a lot. especially when i'm with my super close friends. i enjoy having juicy and smart conversation with people. i'm a very opinionated yet open-minded type of person. I always have a say on everything and i think that annoys a lot of people haha. but i've always believe that those people who loves us, they understand.

and to make this entry simple and easy, here's a list of what my LIKES are really all about. :)
So, in terms of my interest. one thing is for sure: it always change.
  • Movies. films that i love are mostly chick flicks but now i'm starting to fancy tear-jerking dramas and biography films. and strangely i'm such a fan of Classic Romance stories like Jane Austen's creation.
  • Books. i love to read love stories and romantic novels. but still loves to read fictional book like Harry Potter. I've always like reading fairy tales when i was a kid but until now, i'm still a fan of princesses and happly ever afters.
  • TV Series. I specifically adore HIMYM, Nikita, 2 Broke Girls, New Girl and a lot more. you know why i love them!! :D
  • Korean/Asian Dramas. Yep i'm a die hard fan of FULL HOUSE. well, i was young and in love with all this pretty korean faces. so. there.
  • Shoujo Anime/Manga. Otaku. I've always love reading mangas and watching anime. it sounds corny in my age but honestly, i never get tired of it. It's hilarious, romantic and hell of a drama too. you'll be amaze how stories in mangas are like.
  • Art. I'm in love with art. who's not? We may have different perception towards what's art and what's not. so i wont try to convince you with what art do i love. it's just. just. when i see it. feel it. it's art. we just know. makes sense?
  • Bands. In terms of music, i also have specific bands that i love. All Time Low is the one that i love most. mostest. or in whatever highest form. haha. to make it clear and what so ever. in music, i usually prefer acoustic rock, pop rock or just like in art, what gets to my heart -- that's it. :)
  • and a lot more...
This is it for now. ♥

Poetry: Prinsesa

when i was in High School, i remember writing this for a close friend. Take note, we were 16 back then. haha! Torpe sya at ubod ng bagal sa pangliligaw dun sa type niyang girl. :) so i wrote this poem inspired by his puppy love. i love taking inspiration from real stories. well, we were young and in love nung High School kaming magkakaibigan. at may pag ka makata talaga ako noon. :D
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Prinsesa
by Janina

Ngiti mo ay kakaiba,
Mapupungay mong mga mata
at mukha mong kay ganda
Di ko na nalimot ng makita

Tanging alay ay pag-ibig
Para sayo aking giliw
sana ay iyo nang mapansin
Kahit tila di ko 'to maamin

Di masabing mahal kita
Dahil ako'y natotorpe talaga
Hindi ko maaming gusto ka
Dahil tila wala nang saysay pa

Ngayong ako'y matapang na
handa nang ipaglaban ka
ngunit ngayon pa nawala
ang gaya mong prinsesa

Nagsisi sa pagtatago
sa hiyang pinairal ko
Di na sana hinayaan
itong pag tanging laan
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