Naglahong Pag-ibig

When I was in highschool I used to be part of the group who represents our school in regional competition. And this piece is one of the memorable pieces I've perform for an oration.

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Naglahong Pag-ibig

by Josephine F. Corpuz

Sana’y muli kong marinig
Awit mong kay tamis at kay lamig,
TinIg mong sumasabay sa hangin,
Pag-ibig ang sigaw ng damdamin.

Sana’y muli mong sambitin
Pag-ibig mong alay sa akin,
Panagko mong ‘di ako sasaktan,
Sana’y hindi ito malimutan.

Ngutnit ikaw ay biglang nagbago,
Pinaluha’t sinaktan ako.
Pag-ibig sa puso’y tutluyang naglaho,
Lubusang naparam pati ang pangako.

Sabi mo noo’y ako lang ang mamalin,
At tanging aawitan ng tinig mong kay lambing.
Bakit ngayo’y tila di ako nakikilala?
Pag-ibig bas a aki’y sadya ngang nawala?

Masdan mo ako, aking sinta,
Lumuluha sa hirap at tigib na dusa.
Binulag mo yaring mga mata,
Ako ba talga’y wala ng halaga?

Nasan ang pangakong ako’y aalagaan?
Wika mo sa aki’y isa kong kayamanan.
Ang pag-ibig mong aking pinaniwalaan,
Ngayo’y hinuhukay ang aking libingan.

Akala mo yata’y di ako mag tatampo,
Ngunit mali ka, ako’y marunong mahapo.
Ibinigay ko ang lahat ng ibig mo,
Wala ngang naiwan kundi pawing bakas ko.

Talino mo’y tila may hated na lason,
Inilulugmok ako’t hindi binabangon.
Inaakay sa aking kamatayan,
Kalian matatapos ang iyong kalupitan?

Sa pagsikat muli ng araw,
Sana’y muli mo akong matanaw.
Sa pag-ihip muli ng hangin,
Ibulong ang sigaw ng damdamin.

Sana’y muli mo kong marinig,
Awit ng iyong tunay na pag ibig.
Sana’y muli mo akong mahalin,
Pangako mo sana ay tuparin.

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Peachy!

Nobody takes me seriously! Literally.
They told me it was because of my perkiness
(which is so hard to resist)!!
Then let me say my 'thank you's.
Thanks to my new found friends
of kiddos, ates and kuyas at work,
To my best friends that i could easily chat with
anytime-anywhere-ANYHOW of any randomness
And to the wonderful relatives and family I luckily have.
Thanks to all these great people around me
for making my smiles beam the brightest,
my laughter the most honest,
my patience the most understanding
and all my giggles the sweetest.
So I don't really mind,
If some don't take me as serious as i try to be.
I take it as a compliment.
It is to remind me how fortunate i am.
It is a reflection of how I try and strive to live.
It is the universe telling me 'keep smiling'.
and thanks to these people in my life,
i am peachy! :)

It was like in the movies, but this time it's REAL

ANC Report (a link to a short News Report)

First, Lord thank you for this second life. It is because of You that i’m still alive.

Was on my way home last night. Seated beside the window. at the mid-center of the bus. I couldn't clearly remember, but I was wide awake, looking outside. Suddenly I saw this fast approaching white vehicle towards our bus. Then, it hit us.

Then at that moment, I know I was going to die, I just shut my eyes closed, thinking “am i really going to die? Lord, Ikaw na bahala.”

It only took a minute or two but believe it or not it was like a slow-motion scene, i couldn't hear anything, couldn't feel anything. I was thinking of my parents, my brothers, my family. May be, this was all a dream.

But it was not. It was real. It is happening.

So thankful to the Lord, I was able to open my eyes. My mind was shocked! I’m alive! I started hearing people crying for help. Kids. Men. Ladies. Elders. We were inside a wrecked-turned-over-to-its-side bus. Everyone was shocked and scared. And hurting. Instinctively, I was struggling to find my phone. Thank you Lord, I found it hanging and  earphones tangled along the lights and pipes of the bus.

We were able to got out the flipped bus through its shattered front glasses. Broken glasses. Crying-in-pain people. Bloody men and kids. Were all that i’m seeing at that moment along the wide highway. I couldn't speak nor cry. Felt numb yet feeling this weaken head, leg, back and being.

Then, I started praying to the Lord and thanked Him for saving me and everyone. I really thought it was the end for me. I was more than grateful that i'm alive and just had some minor injuries and a little trauma. It wasn't easy to sleep last night, it keeps on replaying inside my head. But knowing that I was able to reach home and sleep on my bed was comforting enough.

from the movie Waiting for Forever

Dear Emma,

Those two words, ‘Dear Emma’ take me away to way another time when we use to write to each other after mom and dad died. I used to tell you about my new friends and my new life. And you used to tell me about the grand time my mom and dad were having in heaven. Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything. And the main thing that I used to believe was that I would be with you forever. Forever. The reason it is taking me so long to write you is that I have seen that I have been a fool. I have spent my life fooling myself. Every letter I’ve ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else? I can see now that all of them, except this one, were bad love letters. Bad love letters beg for love back. Good love letters ask for nothing. This, I’m pleased to announce, is my first good love letter to you. Because there is nothing more for you to do. You already done everything. I have enough of you in my head to last forever. So please don’t ever worry about me. I’m peachy! I really am. I have everything. If i had one wish, it would be that your life brings you a taste of happiness that you have brought to me. That you could feel what it’s like to love.

Your friend forever,

Will

Warm Bodies: This is not a Review

It was my first time to go watch at the movie house alone.

To be honest, it was really hard for me to decide whether to do it or not. First, I don’t want to waste money in a movie if I wont enjoy it. So I was scared that I wont be able to enjoy it because I’m alone. However, I really really really want to see this film because Niholas Hault was in it and the fact that it is a new form of RomCom. But my friends and family can’t come with me, i understand though.

Gladly, I had the courage to go in there and just do it! Or I guess, watch it!

I was late but good enough kind of late. Luckily, the theater wasn’t crowded so I get to choose where to sit. The center. Not too far. Not too near. No one seats on either sides. There was silence.

So the movie is kinda different. But it still is funny, sweet and thrilling. So I laughed, smiled, got thrilled in a very discreet manner. That was the sad part.

I really loved the movie. No questions asked. But as I laugh, smile and be thrilled and be amused and be all kilig-ed, I was also feeling sad because I hope there’s this special someone who could I laugh with, be kilig-ed together with, and be scared along with.

But that part of me was outshone by the enjoyment i got from the film. So yeah. It was a bit sad experience but I’m not saying it isn’t fun though. :)

I wish I could forget how I could never let myself to forget.

I wish I could forget how he never fails to cheer me up. How he tries to distract me from reality with his lame jokes. How his handwritten love letters make my days. How his messages brighten up weekends. How he held my hand that first time. How he told me he loves me and this would last.

Oh, How I wish I could forget how he would never answer my phone calls anymore. How he never gets mad anymore. How he never replies to my ‘I love you’s anymore. How he told me he fell out of love. How he never really explain why.

I wish I could forget how she smiled and said ‘hi’ that very first day we met. How she was so nice to me. How she told me she feels the pain I’m into. How she told me everything will get better in time. How she understands what I’m going through.

Oh, How I wish I could forget how she asked me if she got his shirt’s size right. How she was suddenly the girlfriend. How she was now someone I couldn’t like anymore. How she never really intend to hurt me.

I wish I could forget how I took everything he did for granted. How I didn’t appreciate love at first. How I didn’t make things work for us. How I just let things happened.

Oh, How I wish I could forget how I played around with love.

Books and Reading

Greetings! Lol.
Ever since i started working, i feel like i’m so exhausted with work, chores at home and catching up with friends and family. But don’t get me wrong, i’m loving it. Though because of this, reading has been my sleeping companion. Since i’m tired when i get home, i read so that i can get to dreamland easier. Lol. So i haven’t done any good reading lately. And i miss it. Now that i kinda have the luxury of time, i just couldn’t get into the mood. Argh. What happened. Lol.

Another point this post intend to state is my odd addiction to purchasing books. I’m guilty of buying books even i haven’t finish any of the ones i bought a week earlier. I’m guilty that even though i don’t have time to read them, i still want to have them. I’m guilty of going to book sales, fairs, or bazaars and purchase books, i “think”, i would love to read. I’m used to being impulsive and fickle-minded at the same time. That’s me, i guess.

Say hello to my babies! 

My Twilight Saga set with the Paulo Coelho's and Nicholas Sparks'

Here are the Pinoy Lits. I'm missing Para Kay B by Ricky Lee

The ones from Sales/Bazaars/Fairs

Good finds and good reads! *othersLOL

Borrowed books! *to the owners, i promise to return them! forgive me.

Some of my favsss!

and here are the new ones, bought them awhile ago at Bookay Ukay! :)

Obviously...

Hopefully, i'll be able to get into the vibe of reading again. ♥

Listed: Films by Heart

This list is not just my favorite films. If I were to list my favorite films that would take me forever to decide which is which. This are the films I got to watch for the nth time and never get tired of them. So i called this list "Films by Heart" because when i'm not in such a great mood this films are on my speed dial to get me to smile, cry, laugh, forget and remember. This films remind me to live, love and die happy. So, I consider this films as my remedy when I feel awful or during times that i'm really bored and not on the mood to watch new films. Most of them are either Chick Flicks, Tragic or Romantic films, i'm that kind of person, really. Love and Tragedy are like vitamins to my system. ♥

1. Becoming Jane (2007)

This is a historical film inspired by the early life of the famous author Jane Austen. I love both Anne Hathaway and James McAvoy so that made this film more special. This is the film that made me realize that sometimes loving each other shouldn't be selfish, it's supposed to be selfless. Jane Austen and Thomas Lefroy's love is full of obstacles and colors. And to be honest, I love how their story ended.

2. One Day (2011)

An adaptation of a David Nicholls Novel about Emma Morley and Dexter Mayhew. The movie is like a compilation of the 15th of July in both of Emma and Dexter's life ever since they meet. They became friends and soon lived a different life away from each other. I love their friendship and how they call and update each other. Then come the obstacles they must face. But in a twist of fate they got back into each others arm and became husband and wife. Their story always reminds me how love makes its own way. How life can be a bitch sometimes. What I totally love about this film is that the character are flawed and beautiful in their own ways. It sucks that Emma has to die in the end. But it actually make us think that life is too short to waste yet long enough to let us live the life we want.

3. A Walk to Remember (2002)

One of the first films I love. I have my own VCD copy of this film. why am i all excited typing this review!!! haha. We all know that this is an adaptation of Nicholas Sparks Novel with the same title. What's not to love in this film? Plot wise, it's very heart pounding and totally moving. The Movie Soundtrack is a collection of superb songs that we all still could remember until today. I can't really explain why i'm so in love with this film but Mandy Moore and Shane West were such a darling in this film. The story of Jamie and Landon always remind me of a quote from the film, That their love is like the wind, he can't see it but he can surely feel it. And in the end, Jamie got her miracle. It's him. The way Landon changed for the better.

4. Atonement (2007)

Here's another film adaptation of a novel. This Romantic Drama film tackles the twists and turns of life and how could one decision can change people's life forever. James McAvoy and Keira Knightley definitely are one heck of a tandem. though I still adore them even they're apart. I love love love the aura of this film. It's classy, vintage and elegant in all forms. The story itself was wonderful. It is the story of Cecilia Tallis and their servant's son, Robbie Turner and how her sister Briony changed the path for them. This tragic movie actually made me think that when we die and we had love someone with such purity, would we still meet in heaven? And also, their love story just show that life's full of uncertainty and twist of fate. The ending was unexpected and lovely. And, Director of this, Joe Wright, was also known for directing "Pride and Prejudice". Which is also a film i love! :)

5. Flipped (2010)

Most likely at this point you'll figure out that i have this thing for movie adaptations of novels and here's another one. Flipped is a movie adaptation of the same titled novel written by an American author of children's book, Wendelin Van Draanen. It is a story of young love narrated in both perspective of Bryce and Julianna. What's nice about this film is its setting, during the 1950s. Superb! At first, Juli have this huge crush on Bryce. Then, they both grow up and things and their emotions started to change. I've had always fancy young love and this film captured the most relate-able way of presenting it. This film always puts a smile to my face every time i watch it. Flipped is the kind of movie i watch when i want to have a good night sleep. :)

6. Restless (2011)

This film is a story of a sick girl who falls in love with this weird guy - he has this Japanese ghost friend. Well, honestly, they're both insane for me. Which makes this love story adorable and refreshing. Annabel and Enoch (cute name right?!), as a couple, did some quirky stuff that i would honestly want to experience. If you're keeping up, i'm a hardcore fan of this tragic endings, so when Annabel was dying, I was all eyes and ears on how would Enoch would response since he knew from the start that she'll soon die. what this story made me realize is that when we fall in love, it doesn't matter how long the love was but how true and great it was. When our better half leaves us, it's painful but the happy moments comforts us and makes us realize "I was lucky to even have met you."

7. Moulin Rouge (2001) 

I am extremely in love with this film. This is the film that made me love love itself. It's musical, theatrical and superb. The story of a poet who fell in love with a sensational star of Moulin Rouge. The film was filled with lavish and spectacular set, characters, drama, romance and soundtrack. It has this endearing and everlasting effect on me. The film presented phases of love in a very theatrical and touching way. I could still feel the excitement whenever i watch this movie. and honestly, i have their OST in my playlist. I could totally blame this movie for my hopeless-romantic-ness. "The greatest thing you'll learn is just to love and be loved in return" was my favorite quote of the movie.

8. Mulan (1998) 

One of the coolest animated films ever. We all know Mulan, right? This film has been my favorite animated Disney Princess film for like, for ever! I salute her for being flawed and for being strong. And to be fair, Mulan kinda introduced me to the Chinese culture and all. I was in elementary when i first saw this, but I've watched it since then. And i remember, when i was still staying in Manila, my roommate thought it was kinda hilarious that i still watch and make *kilig* over Mulan. I am very honored that Mulan's singing voice in this films is the famous Pinay Lea Salonga. I adore the movie's soundtrack and musicality and that's one thing i love about Disney films. Mulan never fails to remind me of my dreams when i was that little girl when i first saw this movie, to make my family proud!

9. Tangled (2010) 

yes. i'm a fan of Disney Princesses films and i love that about me. haha.
This Animated film is inspired by the very famous fairy tale, Rapunzel. One fun fact about Tangled? It was in development for 6 years and costed more than $260 million. it is considered one of the most expensive films. What do i love about Tangled? what's not to love? i love their new attack on the story, i adore their music and the animation was perfection. Rapunzel was voiced by Mandy Moore. And Flynn Rider was the most amazing leading man in the history of Disney Princesses films. Tangled - Rapunzel and Eugene - taught me to dream after dream. to reach each dream and dream more dreams to achieve.

10. 500 days of Summer (2009) 

I don't really know where to begin. This isn't the usual narrative approach of other usual films. The film jumps into different parts or circumstances in the life of Tom and Summer which revolves in 500 days. How they met. How they became friends. became close friends. became more than friends. and became strangers to each other again. It is a love story but not the usual love story. It's refreshing to see the guy's perspective in regards to relationship, most especially failed relationships. I adore how original and fresh the film was. And one more thing great about this movie is ZOOEY DESCHANEL.




There you go. Though it's only 10 out of the endless list of the films i'm in love with, soon i'll give you more movies to check out. :)

Book Inventory. :)

At last! I've finally managed to write something. Even it's nothing cool or significant. LOL.

Last Sunday, I spent my rest day cleaning up my room (or almost cleaning it up.) While sorting some stuff I've finally gathered the books I bought for myself. Then and then, I realized that I've got so many books that i haven't read yet. :'( I promise myself to put effort and time into reading for it is not only my stress reliever but also a companion when i'm alone, a friend when i'm lonely and a mentor when i'm in need of wisdom.

So here's my awesome mini library. LOL.

To Kill a Mocking Bird
Persuasion
Perks of being a Wallflower
One Day
By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
The Devil and Miss Prym
Eleven Minutes
The Notebook
The World's Most Evil Man
Chicken Soup for the Soul (Love Stories)
The Last Lecture
Gossip Girl
Twilight Saga Books

From Book Sales:
Charlie Wilson's War
Altered Carbon
Separation Anxiety

By our Manunulats:
Para Kay B
Trip to Quiapo
It's Not that Complicated
Fangirl

Here's few of the those I haven't read. I'm done with "The Perks of being a Wallflower" and now reading "To Kill a Mocking Bird". Soon, I hope I could share how amazing "The Perks of being a Wallflower" is. I'm about to watch the movie adaptation and I hope that would inspire me to write too. Ü

To be honest, I buy books even though I don't really have the luxury of time to read them all. Now, I'm planning to collect all Jane Austen's and the books stated from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", though I'd accept books as gifts! haha.
So there. Here's my attempt to write something new. LOL. Good day! and keep reading.

Opportunity to be Inspired.

Lahat tayo kailangan ng inspiration sa bawat gagawin natin.

Narinig ko sa isang TV show na "we can take inspiration out of anywhere." baka pati rin mula sa anything at anyone. or kahit anong gusto nating paghugutan ng inspirasyon. at sa palagay ko, super totoo un.

Minsan pag lumalabas ako, nakikita ko un langit dito samin pag hapon. ang ganda pero ang lungkot ng kulay. tapos naisip ko, ganun ang buhay eh, ang ganda ganda, ang sarap sarap mabuhay. pero minsan pag mag isa tayo, malungkot din pala mabuhay.

Kadalasan kapag nasa bus ako pauwi, nako super haba ng biyahe, nag iisip ako ng inspirasyon. para habang nasa biyahe ako, makapag buo ako ng concept ng isusulat ko pag uwi ko sa bahay. ayun, so far so good naman.

Siguro, ung mga taong nakakakilala sakin noon, ung alam ung mga bagay bagay tungkol sa totoong ako. ito siguro ung hindi nila ganung alam. ung ganitong side ko. na minsan kahit super expired na nung moment, ginagawa ko paring inspirasyon. sayang eh. kung un ba mag papasipag sakin magsulat, edi, go di ba. Minsan akala natin maliit na bagay lang un. pero from those small yet meaningful moments nakakahugot ng lakas ng loob, ng mga salitang sasakto sa gusto mong ipaliwanag at ng kwento. kwentong minsan pwedeng dagdagan, o bawasan, palitan o kung ano pa man. kasi nangyare na un. kung may iibahin ka, ok lang. hindi naman biography ung ginagawa mo eh. hindi naman straight news. kaya ok lang. hindi porket may ganung linya, ganun na talaga di ba?

Pag binasa niyo ung mga nalagay ko na ditong mga nabuo ko, mapapansin niyo puro love okaya puro moving on or basta parang personal. Oo, aaminin ko, may mga taong hindi maiintindihan tong sasabihin ko, pero might as well, sabihin ko na din. Sinulat ko un base sa nararamdaman ko, pag nanunuod ng movie, nagbabasa ng novel at pag may naaalala ako from the past. pero hindi ibig sabihin nun un ung state ng feelings ko. nagkakataon lang na un ung nabubuo. Hindi naman lahat ng gagawin natin kailangan pang kasalukuyan eh. minsan may mga kwento sa nakaraan na gusto mong ibahagi kasi alam mong somewhere out there ung naramdaman ko noon, baka nararamdaman din nila.

Pag gusto kong sumulat ng masaya, edi iniisip ko ung sa mga movies at mga friends ko na nag eenjoy sa love mga moment na naramdaman ko din un. ung mga sweet na eksena ng mga couple. Pag tungkol sa nakaraan o malungkot na love story, ganun din. movies, libro at personal na experience.

Masarap mainspire sa mga tamang bagay bagay. Kaya everyday, i look at it as an opportunity to be inspired again. and again. :)